| MAH NAMEZ |
[Aug. 3rd, 2008|01:44 pm] |
Poll #1234366 LJ land will determine my name
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 3Miss Zombified or Strange Child? You decide
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| I kind of got annoyed |
[Jul. 31st, 2008|03:58 pm] |
Last night when I was in the bogs of combichrist hearing people constantly name dropping.
Then I realised I used to be exactly the same after I had met Rogue...all three times.
I guess I've got so annoyed with a certain someone going on about how she's best friends with a couple of DJs and managers who she's only talked to a couple of times on myspazz that I totally forget what it's like to meet your hero and how excited and that special feeling you get....
In conclusion, my inner bitch needs taming. Oh and Combichrist are amazing live :) Here's another conclusion I've come to. Back when I used to tag along with my Dad to all these metal gigs I used to wish that it would end even though I did enjoy myself because my feet hurt, I feel sick, I tired etc.
Now when I go to gigs I actually obsess over and enjoy more I don't want it to ever end and will put up with even the most painful feets.
I also feel bad because everyone wants me to go out drinking and stuff and I just can't afford it...nowhere wants to hire me and well I proabbly could afford it if I didn't pay Gabbi back for a while but I want to pay her back as soon as possible.
I don't know wether to be a boring moo...or just go out and enjoy myself...
At any rate, if you buy my shit I can pay off DDF and Gabbi as soon as possible! Take a look at the photobucket album below, I'll be adding more shit soon, and if you're interested in anything please let me know
http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v702/superstrange/lala/ |
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| Sometimes |
[Jul. 28th, 2008|07:58 pm] |
I just want to dye my hair with the nearest bottle of OMGZ EXTREME colour possible, cover my body with piercings and tattoos and run off to London armed only with my camera and my extensive collection of fashion and various other bits and pieces.
Well, it's not like I have any direction in life anyway. Some people have everything planned out for them. I just wander round hoping something good will come my way. It's the only place to be.
Hopefully I will move to Liverpool with Rebecca next summer because I don't think I can take much more of this place, and I've been saying that for the past 6 years ¬_¬
If I don't move in with her, I'm going to have to run off somewhere. Even if it's bloody Birmingham. |
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| OMG IT'S OFFICIAL |
[Jul. 24th, 2008|09:35 am] |
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I am going to drop dead fest, I booked my plane tickets last night!
Now just accomidation and the actual tickets themselves to go.
I've decided all the answer ti my money problems would be to have a carboot sale. Think about it. I could sell all my junk and therefore possibly pay off the money I owe Gabbi for Whitby, and then all my festival shizznizzle will be paid for and I can rejoice!
And of course carboots are fun. Do you remember going to one as a kid? DO YOU? I could seduce a carboot maniac and make him my carboot sugar daddy, buying me even more junk to replace the junk I'm going to sell.
I almost handed in a CV and covering letter to my dream job yesterday when Abby pointed out that instead of putting "good rapport" I put "God Rapport". Well, I am godly, but I doubt Head would think that way. |
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| More dreams |
[Jul. 23rd, 2008|06:13 pm] |
I had a dream last night that I was late to the airport when I was going to DDF in October and my friend Sarah gave me the plane tickets and was like come on into the lounge and then I realised I left my camera at home.
So for some reason Gabbi was there and we went round searching for a cheap one which for some reason went on to phone shopping (some of the phones were in the shape of spiders) and then I lost Sarah and I was like oh noes I'm gonna miss the plane.
Then I realised I still had my suitcase with me and I freaked out, because do they let you on planes with suitcases?
I worry too much. And one thing I've noticed about my festival worrying dreams is that Gabbi always seems to be there to comfort me.
Your blates going to be the one looking after me in Whitby LOL. |
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| How the fuck |
[Jul. 22nd, 2008|07:49 pm] |
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Does one write a cover letter to a music store aaaargh |
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| Well I'm not homeless in Whitby! |
[Jul. 22nd, 2008|08:56 am] |
Gabbi's booked us a supposedly posh hotel because it was the only one with rooms left.
For the price it is I expect the towels to be dimante and the breakfast to be caviar.
It's blates just going to be a random hut somewhere in the middle of whitby with a leaky roof and straw beds.
Although at first Gabbi told me it was £300 a night and I almost died but she was only joking ¬_¬
Now I just need my debit card to come through so I can sort out DDF. Oh and a job. DID YOU KNOW I might be going back to tescos because I'm THAT desperate to get money. Moo :(
But my Swedish friend David and his wife is coming over to London in Septemeber joys!
and I have a crush one someone who is out of reach, bad Emi *slaps wrists* |
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| Dreaming |
[Jul. 19th, 2008|10:16 am] |
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In my dream from the night before last, I dreamt that this one girl I know who is obsessed with Jonny Slut (to the point where she thinks she's best friends with him and thought she was going to make him do all this stuff at the batcave which NEVER HAPPENED) anyway for some reason she was round my house and Jonny Slut was coming round and she was going to tell him that she loved him and wanted to get into a relationship with him then she fucked off somewhere.
And I was like "SHIIIIIIIIIT HE'S GAY" so chased after her so I could tell her and we argued about it for ages because she didn't believe me and then I showed her his facebook and she believed me.
Then Slut came round and we were eating cornflake and milks but he put his in the oven because he said he wanted to make a cornflake cake. So we decided to make loads of cornflake cakes.
But then the oven and the tumble dryer in my bathroom set on fire (I don't even have a tumble dryer in my bathroom) and we were like shiiiiiiit and my Dad came home and I was like "THE HOUSE IS ON FIRE" and he said that that was supposed to happen and that I was stupid and all this crap and blamed me for everything (except the fire which was supposed to happen apparently)
So I ran out crying and Slut chased after me and comforted me and we went to Tescos.
Last night I dream that there were loads of people round my house and we were having a party but it wasn't supposed to be a party, there were all these people from Myton who I hated there and so I told them to get out and they were like no it's a party why should we. So I shouted GET THE FUCK OUT IT'S MY HOUSE AND I'LL CALL THE POLICE. So they all started to leave and their were tons of them but I bumped into someone who I used to be quite close to, Viki (not horrible nasty mortal enemy Vikki nice Viki) and she was crying and told me her Mum had gotten a new boyfriend and she felt replaced so I hugged her and she dissappeared.
Then this girl came up to me and told me what I just did was really nice, I didn't even know who she was.
Then we were at some sorta aftermath of an event and there were LPs scattered everywhere and we could have them and me and this random girl found a Rubella Ballet one and we were like OMG ANOTHER PERSON WHO LIKES RUBELLA BALLET and I let her have it because I thought that I could see another one but I couldn't find it.
Now the only sense I can make of these dreams was that me and Becky were talking about some of the shit that my Dad has done to me the other day, and I've seen Speicmen recently and that fan girl is really getting on my tits.
And yesterday I moved a load of LPs downstairs. And I really love Rubella Ballet.
But I don't get the rest.
But it's good because I haven't been dreaming since Pinni passed away, so I'm quite happy. I've missed dreaming a lot. |
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| By the way |
[Jul. 18th, 2008|07:26 pm] |
The other day I was watching Gok's fashion fix and they were somewhere in Scotland and I SWEAR I saw Faerie on it.
They were doing a catwalk on the street and this girl goes down it with bright pink hair and a FDQFP13 t-shirt on.
I was like SHIT HOW DID SHE GET ON TV O.O |
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| Terrible moodswings |
[Jul. 18th, 2008|07:14 pm] |
One minute I feel like I'm on top of the world and feel so excited it's unbeliveable.
The next minute I feel so low and all my paranoias and fears come to haunt me.
Wish I was back in London. |
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| What an amazing weekend |
[Jul. 16th, 2008|10:33 am] |
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To keep things short:
-Had my frist shoot in ages and I really like the pics I've gotten out of it. Now I just need to edit the ones I took of her.
-I met up with Becky and Sarah and later Carol and we got ready to go to the batcave
-Got to meet the Paul who I had heard so much about from Becky and loads of old batcavers, some of which recognised me from Whitby!
-Bumped into -Negative from VF!
-The bar staff sucked
-SAW SPECIMEN ZOMGZ THEY WERE AMAZING
-Got ill and threw up and missed most of SGC :(
-Dancey dancey dancey
-Got back at 4.30ish am
-OREOS FOR BREKKY
-Watched fivel goes west as we got ready
-Went to Camden and shopped
-Decided to go drinking
-Bai bai to Sarah and Tara :(
-Found our way to the orwell for batcavey bop and were there before Nik LOL
-More dancey dancey
-Back to Niks for chats and tea, he's such a sweetie I tell you
Then on Sunday we went to covent gardens and then home BOO
I want moar Londons. But it appears that because I kinda forgot to eat I have lost two pounds.
I had a dream last night I lost a stone so at least it's not like that bad :P
You can see pics from it here
http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewPicture&friendID=21861392&albumId=2727836
And my shoot pics are on DA as well as in my myspace recent pics thinsdgug
I did the race for life yesterday as well! If you haven't sponsered me you still can on our webpage.
http://www.raceforlifesponsorme.org/rachandemi
As you can see we're still way off our target and I need more sponsers, even if it's a pound! It's worth it! |
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| Pinni |
[Jul. 3rd, 2008|07:42 pm] |
 January 14th 1991 - June 28th 2008
I can't even begin to describe how much Pinni means to me or what a wonderful person he was.
The type of person Pinni was was a very caring and protecting person of his friends.
When I went to Coventry to see him once I was freezing cold and he kept trying to give me his hoody even though it would have left him freezing.
Another time a load of people were perving over me and he decided to pretend to be my boyfriend so they'd leave me alone. When he shouted at one "Isn't she hot?" and the guy replied "yeah she is" he got all embarassed and happy for me. He wouldn't leave me until I caught my bus, even though his bus was before mine!
That was just how lovely he was.
Whenever we met up I don't even think we even did that much, we just talked non stop. Even on MSN we talked non stop. He was one of the only people who actually believed in me and encouraged my dreams, although of course he was very realistic about them all. I'll miss our random rants on MSN.
He was also a very honest person and a very trusting person, you could tell him anything and he wouldn't say a word to anyone.
And he cared sooooo much for animals, his heart was always in the right place and he had great ethics.
So his personality was one of the best I've ever known, as you can tell.
And he was such a fun loving person as well. One of the memories I have of him was when we was in Brumingham and we were walking down discussing what we wanted to eat and I mentioned that I liked grease (as in greasy food!) and he was like "So you like eating pure grease? MMMMMMMMMMMMM GREASE!" and chased me.
Or later on in that day when he was singing now I'm feel zombified and bela lugosi's dead at the top of his voice.
Or our random escapades to hobby craft and TK max.
Or the time when we stalked that bald guy.
I know we had quite a few plans and I intend to still do them for him in his memory.
I want to go to Drop Dead Fest and Rebellion for him.
I'll start up our clothing company for him.
I'll start a club night for him.
And I will become a model for him, because he always told me I could.
I am also going to get a tattoo in his memory when I get the money because he loved tattoos so much. I am just getting "Skank" on my wrist because he was always my gloom skank kid.
But I sound strange when I say this, but I feel like he's with us anyway. His spirit will always be watching over us and instead of focusing on the bad times we must remember all the fucking amazing times we had with Pinni, for they were many.
His memory remains with us all.
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| He's gone |
[Jun. 29th, 2008|09:04 pm] |
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So I mentioned my friend being in hospital.
Well they decided to take him off life support yesterday.
I miss him so much. |
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| And also stolen from Loz |
[Jun. 19th, 2008|11:11 am] |
You know how sometimes people on your friend's list post about stuff going on in their life,
and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when are they working THERE?
Since when are they dating HIM/HER? since when???"
And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information,
but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you *should* already know? I
t happens to all of us sometimes.
Please copy mine below, erase my answers putting yours in their place then post it in your journal!
Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration! One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out.
1. First name:Emi
2. Age: 18
3. Location: Warwick, Warwickshire, England
4. Hometown: Warwick, Warwickshire, England
5. Occupation: Art student, starting my art foundation in September.
6. Partner: None.
7. Kids: I have thought about this so much, I think I might want one of my own, I think I deffinetly want to foster and adopt as well. And adopt a kid from China! But who knows what the future holds.
8. Brothers/Sisters: One older brother, Chris who is 20
9. Pets: 1 fish, Jeremy Kyle and he's about 5/6 years old I think?
10. List the 3-5 biggest things going on in your life: Painting/photography, finding a job, DIY clothing, organising London trips/promoting London events, hospital visits
11. Parents: Janette and Simon, 48 and 49. I love my Mum to pieces.
12. Who are some of your closest friends?: Becky, Rachie Bat, Jo, Sarah, Rachie hippy, Pamela Mary, Sophie, Jenny, Abby, Edward White, Gabbi, Matt
13. Do you drink/smoke?: I drink but only smoke sisha
14. Tattoos/Piercings: No tattoos currently but I have one planned. Only my ears pierced but I want more ear piercings, a monroe and nose piercing but I'm going to wait until I can see where my modelling takes me before I ruin my face =D |
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| Staying in London this July |
[Jun. 19th, 2008|09:46 am] |
Am going to the batcave gig on the 11th of July to see Specimen and Sex Gang Children! It will be fucktastic!
Cavey Nik is offering for me to stay at his place on the 12th so I can go to this
Everyone should go! Tis only £3! |
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| It's so sad |
[Jun. 16th, 2008|04:53 pm] |
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To know that some people haven't changed a bit since year 9. I mean one would hope that you'd have matured a bit since then but no, you haven't changed one bit in 4 years.
4 years ago this would really bug me, infact upset me. At first it pissed me off a lot to know that people were still trying to make fun of me for the same things as 4 years ago and to know that they're starting on my friends for stupid reasons as well.
But now I can't help but laugh and feel a sense of superiority. It's so sad that some people have to insult and attempt to bully everyone because they are so void of any depth or personality and are that insecure.
Fuck, it makes me happy. Yes I'm that narcisstic. It just reminds me of how far I've come and how much I've achived and how I'm oh so much better than the majority of people in the past.
The ones in the present and future I love dearly because they're the ones that matter.
And I'm rambeling again, I know.
Peace festival was eventful. I got upset over personal shit but at least I looked fabulous.
Some ladies said I was Marilyn Monroe and I think I've scared some kids for life ^_^
Pics coming soon hopefully.
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| Well, I may have failed media |
[Jun. 13th, 2008|11:19 am] |
But at least I still have my health!
Well, perhaps I would if my sleeping patterns weren't all over the place again. I couldn't sleep Wednesady night so I did my media exam on no sleep feeling really ill. And I know I messed it up completly, I started to panic and just wanted to throw up.
And the bloody unseen text was like BB, there was a front cover of NOw saying "we hate jade" and Jade's eviction from the house. If it was an essay entitled "please gossip about the racism row and cbb 5" I would have gotten an A. But all this wider context stuff, I ended up managing to fit in representation of women as I always do.
Who needs A levels anyway! =D |
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| Freaking out |
[Jun. 9th, 2008|06:05 pm] |
About media examinations.
I'll sound like the most vainest person when I say this but I know I'm damn good when it comes to media studies. Give me anything and I can deconstruct it for you in an instant. I can tell you esxactly why they have done stuff, even little things, what it relates to in the big world and all the theories that go with it.
But I'm lacking genre theories. Why? Because my teacher hasn't actually really told us any. Now we're writing an exam on genre and representation (seperate essays for each) and how the fuck am I supposed to write one in genre when I don't know any theories? Wider context I know because he waffles on so much, but theories? EEP O.O
And on my practice essays he just write GENRE THEORIES. How am I supposed to put them in if I don't know any! And why do we have to do genre anyway, I mean it's pretty lame as it's always determined by media lang and rep and there's not much to say about it apart from it goes in and out of fashion. Why couldn't we have looked at say narrative? Narrative is fun! It can be chronological or non-linear, and that Propp and Todorov were pretty decent guys!
And he keeps saying don't keep looking at films in your essays. Well we've only bloody watched films! Well, I tell a lie. Once me and Charlotte did a presentation on Sci-fi on the net but still, we didn't get to see any shows or anything. No, he just puts on random docus about slasher films or films like Alien or Children of Men. COF is the only one I can really include properly in an essay.
Nice enough guy, but seeeeesh!
I hate exams anyway. I totally freak out in them. I am fine with photography and art because it's like "paint a canvas in 15 hours and do your coursework like a month before hand". That is fine with me, I like painting anyway. But fuckin timed essays?
Looks like I'm not going to Lowlands this summer too Dissapointing, I really wanna see Sex Pistols and wanna see Anouk again + I love the netherlands very much. That festival is so much fun gaaaaaah and it gives me an oppertunity to meet Simone. Perhaps next year luv?
want to go to Drop Dead Fest in November in Portugal, shit I ain't been there since I was a wee lil thing. Will have to see if Pinni can come.
Want to go to WGW in October, don't fancy Mr Hussy that much though! Oh and staying in a tent probs, at the seaside, in autumn. I think I might buy some blankies there?
Wanna go to Mis-fest ina couple of weeks but don't think I can go which is a bummer.
Wouldn't mind going to Rebellion.
At least I have peace fest to look foward to next week, hey?
Lets just see if I can get me another job for now. Applied for bar job at assembly but they haven't gotten back to me yet. Might try and get a day job at the aviry in the jephsons, I've become addicted to American chat shows and it ain't good. |
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| I can't even remember what my last entry was |
[May. 30th, 2008|02:57 pm] |
So an update on life:
-Shits hit the fan at home again. A lot of stress, a lot of blaming me for stuff and shouting at me for stuff that either isn't my fault or I haven't even done.
-Shits hit the fan with a couple of friends who I really fuckin trusted, but apparently I was wrong.
-Have left sixthform! Sad times! But I know I will see everyone again so this makes me smile.
-I am 18 in two days
-I was in the same shop as Gok Wan the other day and almost had a heart attack.
Well although it seems that I'm a moody poo, I'm just highly stressed out with the situation at home again because I had this amazing time at Whitby and then had to come back to this. So I am trying to spend a lot of time by myself at home or I try and stay out of the house. Although some friends are shit, you know who your real friends are when they keep you sane.
I went to Camden and I forget how much I miss it, well how much I miss London! I always feel a connection with London, I guess that's what happens when a girl like me gets born into a yuppy town :p
I have pretty much all my prom stuff sorted out now.
Urgh this is sounding so boring, bring on the summer! |
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